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I'm exhausted from school. Chapel was great, tomorrow's physics quiz and i have not started studying for it, free period was fun with the clique (: Pictures are above, we were so bored after recess, I Love You Girls :] Math and Combined Humanities was alright, stoning again. After school went to Dover with Yilin & Miki for lunch and rushed back to school for CLB, we did letter writing. Mervyn & I were totally clueless, I think i opened that big thick dictionary more than 20 times today. Cos i didn't know a single word :[ But i managed to complete it. I really need to study hard, worst for worst, I just got my prelims time-table and it's exactly a months time, this is fucking crazy. Anddddd. My stomach pain is acting up again.

I don't know if I'm doing the right thing. I know you don't trust me, it's okay cos no one does anymore. You're the only person who's left who ought to trust me but until now, it's always my fault isn't it? I really have nothing left to say to you already, if you're hurt, are you saying that I'm not a single bit hurt by what you said? I did try to tell you and warn you that I have a very complicated life, and it's up to you if you are willing to give it a try. But, maybe you have regretted your choice, I'm not a single bit sure but I'll just leave you alone now, I'm really hurt deep down inside. I really feel like crying so bad. Why is it so hard for us to get along, I really want to be happy after all I've been through but still, my life is under imperfection. Why can others lead their lives so perfectly and happily while I have so much to worry about, so many things to be hurt about and so many things to be crying over at night for. WHY WHY WHY. Someone please tell me, who I've left to trust now? Are there even people who are willing to help me along? Everybody's got their problems too but why is my life so unfair? I'm so fucking hurt. You don't know what I've been through, so fuck off.

I'm exhausted from school. Chapel was great, tomorrow's physics quiz and i have not started studying for it, free period was fun with the clique (: Pictures are above, we were so bored after recess, I Love You Girls :] Math and Combined Humanities was alright, stoning again. After school went to Dover with Yilin & Miki for lunch and rushed back to school for CLB, we did letter writing. Mervyn & I were totally clueless, I think i opened that big thick dictionary more than 20 times today. Cos i didn't know a single word :[ But i managed to complete it. I really need to study hard, worst for worst, I just got my prelims time-table and it's exactly a months time, this is fucking crazy. Anddddd. My stomach pain is acting up again.

I don't know if I'm doing the right thing. I know you don't trust me, it's okay cos no one does anymore. You're the only person who's left who ought to trust me but until now, it's always my fault isn't it? I really have nothing left to say to you already, if you're hurt, are you saying that I'm not a single bit hurt by what you said? I did try to tell you and warn you that I have a very complicated life, and it's up to you if you are willing to give it a try. But, maybe you have regretted your choice, I'm not a single bit sure but I'll just leave you alone now, I'm really hurt deep down inside. I really feel like crying so bad. Why is it so hard for us to get along, I really want to be happy after all I've been through but still, my life is under imperfection. Why can others lead their lives so perfectly and happily while I have so much to worry about, so many things to be hurt about and so many things to be crying over at night for. WHY WHY WHY. Someone please tell me, who I've left to trust now? Are there even people who are willing to help me along? Everybody's got their problems too but why is my life so unfair? I'm so fucking hurt. You don't know what I've been through, so fuck off.