I have been rather upset these days, I'm tired of people telling me that i'm not good enough. Be it studies or other unrelated events. The point is, why should i keep my happiness at bay? I have been so unproductive due to me being unhappy most the time and i'm easily dissatisfied with almost everything in this world. I'm a big girl now, i really should learn to grow up. Besides, the time on earth is not what people imagined it to be, humans who live in this planet should be worrying about other related things, rather than complaining about things that will never ever take place. The whole point is, i have been really piss with myself these days, my work productivity has gone right down, my time spent at home or in school is rather useless, i get sleepless nights despite the exhaustion, i enjoy picking up quarrels and fights although deep down i hate it so much and will it make sense if i say that i have been crying for the stupidest reasons ever? Every other night. Sometimes things are not as complicated as it seems, it's just that i'm digging a hole with nothings beneath it. Crying really does make me feel better although all these are just my personal feelings and i'm dealing with it. I really want to listen to my favouritest song and hug my favouritest soft toy to sleep now and maybe i could sip my favouritest cup of tea and call the favouritest person in the whole wide world just to say I Love You before i just jump into bed tonight :) That will do to give me an all smiles.

Yesterday after school was greatttttt (: Town with Theodore & Veronica, had lunch at Forum macs and we talked a lot, so funny. Besides, it's been century's since i've stepped into Forum. I miss Hard Rock Cafe, i so remember that lovely cafe just next door that my dad used to bring my entire family for weekend dinner. But that was really long ago :[ Time's changed, people gets uptight with work that family bonds are hard to cherish these days. Okayyyyy, back to yesterday, Toys R Us is just so BIG and fun, i loveeeee. I bought my Barbie pencil case from there, old school kkkk and Cookie Monster/Elmo waterbottle. Coolios, i'm happy! Walked around Town, so tiring. The sight of all those really new dresses and accessories is really making me go, "fuck, i need a shopping spree." Girls with be girls, if only i was born without a desire to shop all the time! I'll be so much richer, hoho.

The poor pony is screaming "bring me home tiffany!"

I will love you for life if i get Princess Sparkles!!!

School today was crazy, yes CRAZY. Time is running out and i'm being such a fucking couch potato. This explains me so much, just this morning, i ran into school like a mad chicken and the fucking bell rang, i looked at my watch and 7:21am!!!! Fuck, late again. So i was actually the first person to be late, so i stood outside the security post like a retarded monkey cursing and swearing that one minute that pronounced me as a late comer, i realise i've always been on the dot but no, this fucking one minute!!!! And there you have it, what insomnia has done to poor me. School on the later part was just taxing. Assignments, test and lectures, pretty much to perk an average student up. Told you it was crazy. After school was awesome, marcus picked me from school (: Hoho, he was late so i went to dover with ian and theodore to buy bubbletea :] Went to his house to slack and eattttt :D Marcus is mad, he fed muffin so much now that she is fucking fattttt and chubby. I should have weight her before i gave it to him so that we could tell the difference but really! She is fat fat fat cos she only eat eat eat just like marcus :)

I have been rather upset these days, I'm tired of people telling me that i'm not good enough. Be it studies or other unrelated events. The point is, why should i keep my happiness at bay? I have been so unproductive due to me being unhappy most the time and i'm easily dissatisfied with almost everything in this world. I'm a big girl now, i really should learn to grow up. Besides, the time on earth is not what people imagined it to be, humans who live in this planet should be worrying about other related things, rather than complaining about things that will never ever take place. The whole point is, i have been really piss with myself these days, my work productivity has gone right down, my time spent at home or in school is rather useless, i get sleepless nights despite the exhaustion, i enjoy picking up quarrels and fights although deep down i hate it so much and will it make sense if i say that i have been crying for the stupidest reasons ever? Every other night. Sometimes things are not as complicated as it seems, it's just that i'm digging a hole with nothings beneath it. Crying really does make me feel better although all these are just my personal feelings and i'm dealing with it. I really want to listen to my favouritest song and hug my favouritest soft toy to sleep now and maybe i could sip my favouritest cup of tea and call the favouritest person in the whole wide world just to say I Love You before i just jump into bed tonight :) That will do to give me an all smiles.

Yesterday after school was greatttttt (: Town with Theodore & Veronica, had lunch at Forum macs and we talked a lot, so funny. Besides, it's been century's since i've stepped into Forum. I miss Hard Rock Cafe, i so remember that lovely cafe just next door that my dad used to bring my entire family for weekend dinner. But that was really long ago :[ Time's changed, people gets uptight with work that family bonds are hard to cherish these days. Okayyyyy, back to yesterday, Toys R Us is just so BIG and fun, i loveeeee. I bought my Barbie pencil case from there, old school kkkk and Cookie Monster/Elmo waterbottle. Coolios, i'm happy! Walked around Town, so tiring. The sight of all those really new dresses and accessories is really making me go, "fuck, i need a shopping spree." Girls with be girls, if only i was born without a desire to shop all the time! I'll be so much richer, hoho.

The poor pony is screaming "bring me home tiffany!"

I will love you for life if i get Princess Sparkles!!!

School today was crazy, yes CRAZY. Time is running out and i'm being such a fucking couch potato. This explains me so much, just this morning, i ran into school like a mad chicken and the fucking bell rang, i looked at my watch and 7:21am!!!! Fuck, late again. So i was actually the first person to be late, so i stood outside the security post like a retarded monkey cursing and swearing that one minute that pronounced me as a late comer, i realise i've always been on the dot but no, this fucking one minute!!!! And there you have it, what insomnia has done to poor me. School on the later part was just taxing. Assignments, test and lectures, pretty much to perk an average student up. Told you it was crazy. After school was awesome, marcus picked me from school (: Hoho, he was late so i went to dover with ian and theodore to buy bubbletea :] Went to his house to slack and eattttt :D Marcus is mad, he fed muffin so much now that she is fucking fattttt and chubby. I should have weight her before i gave it to him so that we could tell the difference but really! She is fat fat fat cos she only eat eat eat just like marcus :)