Tiffany's gonna love herself more, love those who appreciate her presence.
Tiffany's gonna start working to earn her own money and not rely on her parents since people thinks she's a spoilt brat but SHE ISN'T ONE.
Tiffany is going through a tough time with her relationship but she know she'll make it through.
Tiffany is drawing back to God as each day goes by.
Tiffany wants to reunite with many many people, she needs to date people out soon.
Tiffany needs someone to teach her chinese for her exam next week, yay.
Tiffany can't explain how she's feeling now, her heart's misplaced.
Tiffany's wondering what actually happened on 4 november, why why why.
Tiffany needs some comfort, needs some encouragement.
Tiffany misses America, misses her brothers.
Tiffany wants to pass her N levels, can she?
Tiffany doesn't understand why her life's messing up again, she needs to pull herself together.
Tiffany wants to clean up her room.
Tiffany can't wait for a sleepover party with her girlfriends next week!
Tiffany loves marcus.
Tiffany needs marcus.
Tiffany wants to hug marcus now but he is at everton pork now :(
Tiffany's wondering what kaijie's doing now.
Tiffany's staring at her phone.
Tiffany hates this blog.
Tiffany hates being emo cos emo makes her sad and makes people sad and even cry sometimes.
Tiffany wants to sit on a ferris wheel.
Tiffany needs to get to sleep cos she's going out with kiki tomorrow.
Tiffany's wondering why SOME of her friends went MIA-ING.
Tiffany misses the old times, the good old days.
Tiffany tried her best to be a friend to SOMEONE but that SOMEONE remained arrogant.
Tiffany should just give up.
Tiffany will be happy, SHE WILL.
Tiffany doesn't understand what her heart wants sometimes.
Tiffany is confused.
Tiffany need you.
Tiffany's trying hard.
Tiffany will change.
Tiffany wants to go sailing, sail as far away as she can.
Tiffany wants to be Juliet sometimes cos she "died happily."
I have decided to abandon this blog really soon. Honestly, words helps me to express myself, my feelings & my life and this gives me the perfect reason to blog. Anw. Great, I finally manage to catch HSM 3 Senior Year with marcus yesterday after my exam. He fetched me from school & we had lunch at vivo. Saw renia, hannah, jacqueline & bella, HAHAHA. We sat in the same row in the cinema. I hate vivo now, invaded by so many weirdos, low-class just like that damn anonymous reader. HAHAHA WHO NEEDS COUNSELLING, no wonder didn't come back to tag me cos you're too busy attending counselling sessions :( Aww so sweet of you, you're doing something GOOD for yourself :) Yayness. Btw, can someone tell me how on earth blogger can have a PHOTO QUOTA EXCEED? This is insane, I can't upload a single thing now. Oh wells, I'm gonna change to live journal soon, I'm sick of blogger & xanga. Damnnnn. But don't worry, I'll specially let my haters know my new URL, I LOVE THE WAY THEY HATE ME, IT MAKES ME HAPPY :) INSULT ME MORE PLEASY PLEASE. Wait for my new blog addy people! :) Tiffany is happy, Tiffany doesn't need people who doesn't appreciate her in her life, KARMA KARMA, hohoho. Tiffany used to have some friends close to her, but now they all seems to be BUSY with their life, some have boyfriends and some just can't be bothered cos they're already happy with their life. Honestly feel so f betrayed. At least I still have my close friends by my side and marcus. I DON'T NEED YOU. FUCK FUCK FUCK. This blog brings too much memories. I need a new life, a new entry, a new place to ponder and start over. Blogger seriously, you should just close down. Alright I had enough of LALALALA-ING everything out now :) Teheeee. Damn I love my life. ROCKS MORE THAN YOURS :D PEACE. FYI I DO BELIEVE IN KARMA, DO YOU?
We were both young when I first saw you I closed my eyes and the flashback starts I'm standing there On a balcony in summer air
See the lights, see the party, the ball gowns I see you make your way through the crowd And say hello Little did I know
That you were Romeo, you were throwing pebbles And my daddy said, "stay away from Juliet" And I was crying on the staircase Begging you, please don't go And I said
Romeo, take me somewhere we can be alone I'll be waiting, all there's left to do is run You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess It's a love story Baby, just say yes
So, I sneak out to the garden to see you We keep quiet cause we're dead if they knew So close your eyes Escape this town for a little while
Oh oh Cause you were Romeo, I was the scarlet letter And my daddy said, "stay away from Juliet" But you were my everything to me I was begging you, please don't go And I said
Romeo, take me somewhere we can be alone I'll be waiting, all there's left to do is run You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess It's a love story Baby, just say yes
Romeo, save me They try to tell me how I feel This love is difficult, but it's real Don't be afraid, we'll make it out of this mess It's a love story Baby, just say yes
Oh oh
I got tired of waiting Wondering if you were ever coming around My faith in you is fading When I met you on the outskirts of town And I said
Romeo, save me I've been feeling so alone I keep waiting for you, but you never come Is this in my head I don't know what to think He knelt to the ground and pulled out a ring And said
Marry me, Juliet, you'll never have to be alone I love you and that's all I really know I talked to your dad Go pick out a white dress It's a love story Baby, just say yes 'Cause we were both young when I first saw you
I'm back from my vacation from the states! Yay, finally I can hug my baby boy after seventeen days away from that stupid boy :) HAHA came home at two in the morning and found baby hiding under my study table, hahaha hug him super tighttttttt. And found piglet on my bed, a new huggable from him and a diary where he wrote his "every-day" happenings on it. Thank you sweetheart! Oh! Anyway, he stayed over my place for two solid nights, yayness to that. Bought him many things from states, that boyfriend of mine immediately tried everything on, HAHAHA. His prom night outfit plus suspenders! Okay, jk. Bought like MANY THINGS for myself. I'll try and take pictures of my spree soon ;) My best buy was my pink coach wristlet & my pink juicy couture wallet, baby liked it very much too! Lots of Tinkerbell items too, teehee, tops, skirts, shorts, dresses & many Victoria Secret stuff, VS bag, VS round purse, VS lipstick, VS water bottle & VS pencil case/make-up bag and pumps, slippers, necklaces, bangles, posters, underwearssssss. HAHAHA, and many more which I cannot remember at the moment. I'm so damn happy with my buys and the best of all, I used my savings to buy most of my spree, awesome. I bought baby shirts, shorts, belt, suspenders, spider-man stuff, our name engraved on a dog-tag, lotsa chocolates, jellybeans, american eagles' trunks + boxers & I can't really remember. I'm really happy with America's fashion wise, there's even Forever 21 items for guys, that's where I got baby's shorts. I'm a happy shopper but at the same time I'm really broke now, rahhhhhhh :( Oh wellllls. I'm going to start spending time doing many things since I'm back. Spend time with baby, start getting a JOB, I NEED MONEY. Start catching up with my "hi-bye" friends, primary school friends and miki tan & co, swenn, elize, bianca, theodore, russell & the "oop". I MISS YOU GUYS.
On top of that, I'm really glad that I got the opportunity to spend time with my two brothers. I love them to bits. Well, I went to quite a bit of places, first it was Tokyo Narita (it was a transit), Seattle, Washington D.C (another transit), Buffalo New York & Canada Toronto :) Went for an American Football match & Ice Hockey game, it was a blast. I love americans, I love the atmosphere there, I just love America. I shall get marcus to migrate with me there, teehee. I wish! I bet he'll never agree to that >:( And I have plenty of pictures to upload, truckloads of them and that will take me forever to do so but I shall upload them on friendster and facebook first. And I guess my pictures will tell my story for the seventeen days so wait for me to upload my pictures okay :) For the record, marcus changed his phone to some LG pink touch screen (!!!!!!!) Unfair! And so I asked him, WHY PINK! Then he went, "I thought you like pink, so I'm learning to like pink too and we can exchange phones too." I was at all smiles when I heard that, baby's the sweetest thing. This sunday's our fifth month! Time flies indeed, and we have already made plans :) Yayness, I'm really the happiest girl sometimes. Tomorrow's baby's Social Studies exam, he's almost done with his O's. YAY. Baby, you already got the chicken essence brain, so don't need to drink k cos I know you don't have any at home already, HAHA. All the best tomorrow, and all the best to me on tuesday for my F&N which I have not even touched. Okay, I'll blog again soon. Bye dawgs, love love.
I love MARCUS SEAH KAI JIE cos no other boy can beat you in your sweetness :D
Tiffany just left Seattle yesterday. Tiffany's in Buffalo New York now. Tiffany's going Canada soon for a road trip. Tiffany misses her boyfriend x(12751275725753) truckloads. Tiffany misses her friendsssss. Tiffany's gonna screw up her f&n exam. Tiffany's suffering from Jetlag, cough & flu. Tiffany's freezing in the minus degrees chamber. Tiffany wants to hug marcus seah kai jie now cos only he keeps her warm. Tiffany needs to find the call card soon. Tiffany needs to stop spending money cos she's only left with 100 USD. Tiffany loves her family. Tiffany loves her brothers. Tiffany will be back on 1 November, 1AM.
I'm in SEATTLEEEEEEEEE (: This is so fun, its 7:11AM over here & we're just about to leave for breakfast with Thaddeus. Yay, i love my brother. Anw, marcus. I'm missing you each and everyday. I'm so lost without being with you for so long, AHHHH. Just remember that I'll always love you baby :( But I shall be happy and marcus, please be happy too. You BETTER study for your exams, please? If not I'm gonna swear that its my fault cos I went away when you needed me the most. I'm sorry, forgiven? I love you baby! PS: Happy Sweet Sixteen Swenn Long you bitch, I know its belated but its still 18 Oct over here. AHAHA. Oh man, I'm starting to miss home already, miss being in school with my friends and of course, I miss baby's voice, his hugs & kisses. I'm going for an American Football game at 4Pm later, Huskies VS Oregan State? HAHA. Can't wait, wish marcus could be beside me :( Awww baby. I'll miss you & I have so much to tell you!
I'll be leaving for America in less than 5 hours time now but here I am packing up my luggage bag & uploading songs into my iPod (HAHAHA) while my baby marcus' sleeping beside me now, he is one piggggg but I still love you baby :) I know you'll miss me. For the time being, I can't upload any pictures bcos blogger's being a bitch, I promise when I'm back, I'll have plenty of pictures to update ya'll :)
My dearest boyfriend, please please take good care of yourself, sleep early and have your meals on time okay? Don't go home too late and study hard for your O LEVELS, do well okay, I have confidence in you, all the best babeh, you can do it :) I'll try to call you as and when but I can't promise I'll call you very often as our timings are of different but I'll try alright so don't wait up. I'll be back in SEVENTEEN days time and I'll give you a super big hug and I'll not let go k. Teehee, you're the best baby. You know I'll always love you, despite the distance and when I'm back, you know things will stay the same for us. I can't wait for the so many plans after our exams & all, we're gonna have the sweetest time of our life, it's a promise remember? Give it your best shot for your upcoming examinations okay? It's a chance to prove everyone that you can do it cause I know you can :) Even though I'm not physically there to encourage you but you know you always got my back, always your encourager so don't give up! You have muffin & cupcake sleeping beside you everyday :] As for me, I'll be fine, I'll try my best to shop for you okay? Teehee, I'll be in great hands, don't worry :) And of course, always remember that I trust you greatly, as always :) I love you my dearest baby, always thinking about you & spinning the necklace <3
Happy & Blessed Birthday Daddy & Mummy :) Last Sunday had a BBQ party at home for my parents, my dad's side came. I'll let the pictures do most of the talking,
There's still more pictures but yet again, blogger's being a total bitch, I wanna complain (!!!!)
I love you marcus, you really mean the world to me and without you, I can no longer move on from wherever you left me at. I'm sorry for all the quarrels and misunderstandings we have been going through these past few days, I know the pain the both of us experienced really expresses how much we cherish & love each other. This goes to show that we are really meant for each other baby, you will always be my favourite-st boy alright? (: Thank you for everything you have done for me, the effort put in to please me and also helping to clear the misunderstandings we had and always trying to make me happy. I do appreciate everything you have done. Thanks for the fourth month present, I really love it even if i don't express it, you know I suck at expressing myself = I really like how you have chosen the necklace in a very special and meaningful way. Thanks baby! For the spinning necklace (when you spin there's a word in a mid-air showing "I Love You.") AHHHH. My baby is super sweet. Thanks for the Ed Hardy cap too, i love the blings on it, coooolios :) And thanks for the apology present which is a new hamster in a baby pink cage and we decided to name it Cupcake! Cos she's muffin's little sister, of the same breed. Thanks a million darling! I appreciate the effort put in, no other boy can do it like you, you're really the sweetest already. Please keep it this way marcus, lets stay like this forever although forever does not take place in my world but you have to prove it to me :) I'm leaving in 4 days time and your O's are taking place this thursday. Please take care of yourself and study hard. I hope whenever you're down from all that studying and need some encouragement, you'll open your pencil case to find that note sticked there :) I hope you like the CDs with our all-time favourite songs, the heart-shaped strawberry cheesecake baked with love & the red larva lamp, I think it's super cooooool. I'll always be that light, guiding you through your darkest time. It'll put you to sleep for the next 17 days okay. I love you baby, with all my heart. Let's treasure the next 4 days together & start everything afresh okay?
I lose my way And it's not too long before you point it out I cannot cry Because I know that's weakness in your eyes I'm forced to fake A smile, a laugh everyday of my life My heart can't possibly break When it wasn't even whole to start with
Because of you I never stray too far from the sidewalk Because of you I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt Because of you I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me Because of you I am afraid
I watched you die I heard you cry every night in your sleep I was so young You should have known better than to lean on me You never thought of anyone else You just saw your pain And now I cry in the middle of the night For the same damn thing..
“Love is patient, love is kind and envies no one. Love is never boastful, nor conceited, nor rude, never selfish, not quick to take offence. There is nothing love cannot face, there is no limit to its faith, its hope, and endurance. In a world, there are three things that last forever: faith, hope, and love but the greatest of them all is love.”
1 Corinthians 13
I GIVE UP. I give up being that perfect person everyone expects me to be. I tried my best, it's not like I didn't put in effort to please the people around me. I wish I could be perfect but I was made with my own imperfections too. The pain.. it's excruciating, it's killing me mentally & emotionally. My heart's withering, I'm not meant to love someone, it's just too painful to do so. I tried to open my heart to you, start something different, something I never felt before. Maybe this is what love suppose to be, not like my other past(s), so childish and yet trying hard for a matured relationship. I really did love you, I'm still trying hard to hold on to you. But I'm falling into pieces, I can't pick myself up from where we started. You may say I have been carrying a fake smile for the past four months, but WHY, why did you promise me things that you can't keep? Are these empty promises or just plain mistakes. You told me your ex-girlfriend made empty promises and that's one of the reason why you broke up with her but you are making the same mistake too. I'm the fool alright? I admit, I do have my own weaknesses too. I can't easily let go of memories, I have a whole string of them. Especially when I asked you did you make promises to any other girls and you replied NO without giving it a careful thought?! But I have been keeping quiet, I do know more things than you think I have no clue about but like I said, I have my ways. You did promise other girls, its written on your own archives CLEARLY. It really hurts me, all I wanted was the truth, why are you running away from it? Why can't you tell me frankly how you felt, I just wanted to know. I know, maybe I am not as special as them or not good at doing all those sweet little things that most girls can do just to make their boyfriend(s) smile but I am trying, I really am. I feel crush-ed, it's terrible. You just left me in this terrible state. Joke, whats the point. Don't try to contact me or anything. I rather be alone, we both need time. That's what I thought initially but everythings' a mess right now. We shouldn't have met perhaps, I guess it was a silly mistake. You left and you expect me to clear up this mess and let go of this memories shared all by myself? How selfish can you get! I knew nobody could show me forever, NOBODY. I want to be alone now, I want to live my life just by myself with time on my side. I wanna leave everything behind and stop crying myself to sleep anymore, it's too painful. Fuck everything, really.
God, Tiffany should not have existed. It just makes others unhappy, others heartbroken and she's too useless. Why the hell am I doing on this earth? I can't make things right. No matter how hard I tried, I'm never gonna reach for that simple happiness, I'll never be that almost perfect girl everyone wants me to be. I'm just a burden in people's lives. I really want to disappear, maybe I'll just keep everything to myself, leave this place full of fucking memories, leave everything behind. I know, it's the perfect timing since I'm flying off on Friday morning. And when I'm back, I swear, I'll be fine. I'll be happy once again, I will. For now, fuck everything, fuck love. What is love, God can you give me an explanation? I really need you right now. I really want to feel your presence back again, you are the only one who will never leave me, never forsake me. You are the only Love Story I will ever cherish and believe in. No one can compare to your true love, no one. Give me a chance to make things right again to start a life with no regrets. I'm already starting to miss so many things right now, I miss muffin, I miss how she poses for pictures, how active and lively she can get, I wonder what's she's really doing now. Oh well, I miss the OLD you. I really do, can't help it, people change in a blink of an eye. You never knew what kind of person you were before, you were so cheerful, so loving, sweet, gentle and had a charisma no other boy would possess. But after today, I guess it's really true that I can't forget your past, I'm still not able to do so or maybe I just need time which you are not able to give me you even told it will hurt if we talk about your past. You mean you are still hurt? I really don't understand you. I'm not use to not being the FIRST. I'm always the FIRST in everything, I felt that my boyfriend's heart had always belonged to me cos most of them has never been in a relationship before, or even so, it was not a realistic one. I was their FIRST, but not for you. Whenever I ask you about them, you are always running away from the question, why is that so? You don't have to give me an answer, I am not fit to ask you for an explanation. Only you know the answer, only you. I'm sorry for all the bad times but I'm also thankful for all the good times too. Love, it's over-rated, it just don't make sense to me anymore. Please leave me alone, I really need time away from you, to forget you. It's hard, but at least I'll try, I'll try.
Tiffany, please pick yourself up, now is the time to cry all your worries and troubles all out for this once. Do whatever you have to do to make yourself feel better, once you're back from your vacation, your heart will have the strength to piece itself back again. You will get better, you will.
they never seem to end. Why am I burning all these CDs of all our all-time favourite songs just to keep you company while I'm away? HAHA joke, I am the joke. Trying to be a better girlfriend towards you yet it never seems to take flight at all. Six more minutes and I'm crying so badly already.
I'm finally done with my N LEVELS (!!!) Honestly, I gave it my best shot, I tried my very best to work towards my targets with my constant mugging. Just really hope to collect my results in December with no regrets and get promoted as a class (: All that stress and fending-distractions are O-V-E-R. On a happier note, Tiffany has been the happiest girl in the whole wide world and she has been loving every single thing about her life, teehee. Reasons being,
Picnic & Biking at East Coast on Lantern Festival w/ our baby Muffin,
Lunch at White Dog Cafe,
Lets keep it this way,
Random,
Last day of N Levels, went to Jean Yip for my hair-cut together with Mummy. Cut bangs & shaped my hair behind to concave but kept my length so not much difference :) After our hair-cut went for a quick shopping. Bought my red ballet Crocs, plain ear studs & two sweatshirts from Zara - baby pink & navy blue. Met Marcus and we ate our favourite chilli cheese fries at Carls Jr. Caught Mama Mia, like finally (: Love the show, totally. After the movie, we went to Giant to shop for groceries and rushed back to my place. We cooked for each other for dinner, to be more precise, it was candle-light dinner. Cooked two pieces of steak, fries, cheese saussages, chicken wings, mini-hashbrowns & pasta. It was really nice, I tell you :) Thanks baby, I love you.
Marcus stayed over my place & we played The Game of Life half-way (HAHA) We slept all the way till noon the next day and we headed to Suntec/Marina Square in the late afternoon intending to catch House Bunny but there was NO available time slots >:( Ate my favourite green tea ice-cream & walked to Esplanade to take some pictures (:
When the going gets tough, the tough gets going.
I love marcus seah kai jie, thanks for everything baby, all the times we spent together <3
Tiffany's gonna love herself more, love those who appreciate her presence.
Tiffany's gonna start working to earn her own money and not rely on her parents since people thinks she's a spoilt brat but SHE ISN'T ONE.
Tiffany is going through a tough time with her relationship but she know she'll make it through.
Tiffany is drawing back to God as each day goes by.
Tiffany wants to reunite with many many people, she needs to date people out soon.
Tiffany needs someone to teach her chinese for her exam next week, yay.
Tiffany can't explain how she's feeling now, her heart's misplaced.
Tiffany's wondering what actually happened on 4 november, why why why.
Tiffany needs some comfort, needs some encouragement.
Tiffany misses America, misses her brothers.
Tiffany wants to pass her N levels, can she?
Tiffany doesn't understand why her life's messing up again, she needs to pull herself together.
Tiffany wants to clean up her room.
Tiffany can't wait for a sleepover party with her girlfriends next week!
Tiffany loves marcus.
Tiffany needs marcus.
Tiffany wants to hug marcus now but he is at everton pork now :(
Tiffany's wondering what kaijie's doing now.
Tiffany's staring at her phone.
Tiffany hates this blog.
Tiffany hates being emo cos emo makes her sad and makes people sad and even cry sometimes.
Tiffany wants to sit on a ferris wheel.
Tiffany needs to get to sleep cos she's going out with kiki tomorrow.
Tiffany's wondering why SOME of her friends went MIA-ING.
Tiffany misses the old times, the good old days.
Tiffany tried her best to be a friend to SOMEONE but that SOMEONE remained arrogant.
Tiffany should just give up.
Tiffany will be happy, SHE WILL.
Tiffany doesn't understand what her heart wants sometimes.
Tiffany is confused.
Tiffany need you.
Tiffany's trying hard.
Tiffany will change.
Tiffany wants to go sailing, sail as far away as she can.
Tiffany wants to be Juliet sometimes cos she "died happily."
I have decided to abandon this blog really soon. Honestly, words helps me to express myself, my feelings & my life and this gives me the perfect reason to blog. Anw. Great, I finally manage to catch HSM 3 Senior Year with marcus yesterday after my exam. He fetched me from school & we had lunch at vivo. Saw renia, hannah, jacqueline & bella, HAHAHA. We sat in the same row in the cinema. I hate vivo now, invaded by so many weirdos, low-class just like that damn anonymous reader. HAHAHA WHO NEEDS COUNSELLING, no wonder didn't come back to tag me cos you're too busy attending counselling sessions :( Aww so sweet of you, you're doing something GOOD for yourself :) Yayness. Btw, can someone tell me how on earth blogger can have a PHOTO QUOTA EXCEED? This is insane, I can't upload a single thing now. Oh wells, I'm gonna change to live journal soon, I'm sick of blogger & xanga. Damnnnn. But don't worry, I'll specially let my haters know my new URL, I LOVE THE WAY THEY HATE ME, IT MAKES ME HAPPY :) INSULT ME MORE PLEASY PLEASE. Wait for my new blog addy people! :) Tiffany is happy, Tiffany doesn't need people who doesn't appreciate her in her life, KARMA KARMA, hohoho. Tiffany used to have some friends close to her, but now they all seems to be BUSY with their life, some have boyfriends and some just can't be bothered cos they're already happy with their life. Honestly feel so f betrayed. At least I still have my close friends by my side and marcus. I DON'T NEED YOU. FUCK FUCK FUCK. This blog brings too much memories. I need a new life, a new entry, a new place to ponder and start over. Blogger seriously, you should just close down. Alright I had enough of LALALALA-ING everything out now :) Teheeee. Damn I love my life. ROCKS MORE THAN YOURS :D PEACE. FYI I DO BELIEVE IN KARMA, DO YOU?
We were both young when I first saw you I closed my eyes and the flashback starts I'm standing there On a balcony in summer air
See the lights, see the party, the ball gowns I see you make your way through the crowd And say hello Little did I know
That you were Romeo, you were throwing pebbles And my daddy said, "stay away from Juliet" And I was crying on the staircase Begging you, please don't go And I said
Romeo, take me somewhere we can be alone I'll be waiting, all there's left to do is run You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess It's a love story Baby, just say yes
So, I sneak out to the garden to see you We keep quiet cause we're dead if they knew So close your eyes Escape this town for a little while
Oh oh Cause you were Romeo, I was the scarlet letter And my daddy said, "stay away from Juliet" But you were my everything to me I was begging you, please don't go And I said
Romeo, take me somewhere we can be alone I'll be waiting, all there's left to do is run You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess It's a love story Baby, just say yes
Romeo, save me They try to tell me how I feel This love is difficult, but it's real Don't be afraid, we'll make it out of this mess It's a love story Baby, just say yes
Oh oh
I got tired of waiting Wondering if you were ever coming around My faith in you is fading When I met you on the outskirts of town And I said
Romeo, save me I've been feeling so alone I keep waiting for you, but you never come Is this in my head I don't know what to think He knelt to the ground and pulled out a ring And said
Marry me, Juliet, you'll never have to be alone I love you and that's all I really know I talked to your dad Go pick out a white dress It's a love story Baby, just say yes 'Cause we were both young when I first saw you
I'm back from my vacation from the states! Yay, finally I can hug my baby boy after seventeen days away from that stupid boy :) HAHA came home at two in the morning and found baby hiding under my study table, hahaha hug him super tighttttttt. And found piglet on my bed, a new huggable from him and a diary where he wrote his "every-day" happenings on it. Thank you sweetheart! Oh! Anyway, he stayed over my place for two solid nights, yayness to that. Bought him many things from states, that boyfriend of mine immediately tried everything on, HAHAHA. His prom night outfit plus suspenders! Okay, jk. Bought like MANY THINGS for myself. I'll try and take pictures of my spree soon ;) My best buy was my pink coach wristlet & my pink juicy couture wallet, baby liked it very much too! Lots of Tinkerbell items too, teehee, tops, skirts, shorts, dresses & many Victoria Secret stuff, VS bag, VS round purse, VS lipstick, VS water bottle & VS pencil case/make-up bag and pumps, slippers, necklaces, bangles, posters, underwearssssss. HAHAHA, and many more which I cannot remember at the moment. I'm so damn happy with my buys and the best of all, I used my savings to buy most of my spree, awesome. I bought baby shirts, shorts, belt, suspenders, spider-man stuff, our name engraved on a dog-tag, lotsa chocolates, jellybeans, american eagles' trunks + boxers & I can't really remember. I'm really happy with America's fashion wise, there's even Forever 21 items for guys, that's where I got baby's shorts. I'm a happy shopper but at the same time I'm really broke now, rahhhhhhh :( Oh wellllls. I'm going to start spending time doing many things since I'm back. Spend time with baby, start getting a JOB, I NEED MONEY. Start catching up with my "hi-bye" friends, primary school friends and miki tan & co, swenn, elize, bianca, theodore, russell & the "oop". I MISS YOU GUYS.
On top of that, I'm really glad that I got the opportunity to spend time with my two brothers. I love them to bits. Well, I went to quite a bit of places, first it was Tokyo Narita (it was a transit), Seattle, Washington D.C (another transit), Buffalo New York & Canada Toronto :) Went for an American Football match & Ice Hockey game, it was a blast. I love americans, I love the atmosphere there, I just love America. I shall get marcus to migrate with me there, teehee. I wish! I bet he'll never agree to that >:( And I have plenty of pictures to upload, truckloads of them and that will take me forever to do so but I shall upload them on friendster and facebook first. And I guess my pictures will tell my story for the seventeen days so wait for me to upload my pictures okay :) For the record, marcus changed his phone to some LG pink touch screen (!!!!!!!) Unfair! And so I asked him, WHY PINK! Then he went, "I thought you like pink, so I'm learning to like pink too and we can exchange phones too." I was at all smiles when I heard that, baby's the sweetest thing. This sunday's our fifth month! Time flies indeed, and we have already made plans :) Yayness, I'm really the happiest girl sometimes. Tomorrow's baby's Social Studies exam, he's almost done with his O's. YAY. Baby, you already got the chicken essence brain, so don't need to drink k cos I know you don't have any at home already, HAHA. All the best tomorrow, and all the best to me on tuesday for my F&N which I have not even touched. Okay, I'll blog again soon. Bye dawgs, love love.
I love MARCUS SEAH KAI JIE cos no other boy can beat you in your sweetness :D
Tiffany just left Seattle yesterday. Tiffany's in Buffalo New York now. Tiffany's going Canada soon for a road trip. Tiffany misses her boyfriend x(12751275725753) truckloads. Tiffany misses her friendsssss. Tiffany's gonna screw up her f&n exam. Tiffany's suffering from Jetlag, cough & flu. Tiffany's freezing in the minus degrees chamber. Tiffany wants to hug marcus seah kai jie now cos only he keeps her warm. Tiffany needs to find the call card soon. Tiffany needs to stop spending money cos she's only left with 100 USD. Tiffany loves her family. Tiffany loves her brothers. Tiffany will be back on 1 November, 1AM.
I'm in SEATTLEEEEEEEEE (: This is so fun, its 7:11AM over here & we're just about to leave for breakfast with Thaddeus. Yay, i love my brother. Anw, marcus. I'm missing you each and everyday. I'm so lost without being with you for so long, AHHHH. Just remember that I'll always love you baby :( But I shall be happy and marcus, please be happy too. You BETTER study for your exams, please? If not I'm gonna swear that its my fault cos I went away when you needed me the most. I'm sorry, forgiven? I love you baby! PS: Happy Sweet Sixteen Swenn Long you bitch, I know its belated but its still 18 Oct over here. AHAHA. Oh man, I'm starting to miss home already, miss being in school with my friends and of course, I miss baby's voice, his hugs & kisses. I'm going for an American Football game at 4Pm later, Huskies VS Oregan State? HAHA. Can't wait, wish marcus could be beside me :( Awww baby. I'll miss you & I have so much to tell you!
I'll be leaving for America in less than 5 hours time now but here I am packing up my luggage bag & uploading songs into my iPod (HAHAHA) while my baby marcus' sleeping beside me now, he is one piggggg but I still love you baby :) I know you'll miss me. For the time being, I can't upload any pictures bcos blogger's being a bitch, I promise when I'm back, I'll have plenty of pictures to update ya'll :)
My dearest boyfriend, please please take good care of yourself, sleep early and have your meals on time okay? Don't go home too late and study hard for your O LEVELS, do well okay, I have confidence in you, all the best babeh, you can do it :) I'll try to call you as and when but I can't promise I'll call you very often as our timings are of different but I'll try alright so don't wait up. I'll be back in SEVENTEEN days time and I'll give you a super big hug and I'll not let go k. Teehee, you're the best baby. You know I'll always love you, despite the distance and when I'm back, you know things will stay the same for us. I can't wait for the so many plans after our exams & all, we're gonna have the sweetest time of our life, it's a promise remember? Give it your best shot for your upcoming examinations okay? It's a chance to prove everyone that you can do it cause I know you can :) Even though I'm not physically there to encourage you but you know you always got my back, always your encourager so don't give up! You have muffin & cupcake sleeping beside you everyday :] As for me, I'll be fine, I'll try my best to shop for you okay? Teehee, I'll be in great hands, don't worry :) And of course, always remember that I trust you greatly, as always :) I love you my dearest baby, always thinking about you & spinning the necklace <3
Happy & Blessed Birthday Daddy & Mummy :) Last Sunday had a BBQ party at home for my parents, my dad's side came. I'll let the pictures do most of the talking,
There's still more pictures but yet again, blogger's being a total bitch, I wanna complain (!!!!)
I love you marcus, you really mean the world to me and without you, I can no longer move on from wherever you left me at. I'm sorry for all the quarrels and misunderstandings we have been going through these past few days, I know the pain the both of us experienced really expresses how much we cherish & love each other. This goes to show that we are really meant for each other baby, you will always be my favourite-st boy alright? (: Thank you for everything you have done for me, the effort put in to please me and also helping to clear the misunderstandings we had and always trying to make me happy. I do appreciate everything you have done. Thanks for the fourth month present, I really love it even if i don't express it, you know I suck at expressing myself = I really like how you have chosen the necklace in a very special and meaningful way. Thanks baby! For the spinning necklace (when you spin there's a word in a mid-air showing "I Love You.") AHHHH. My baby is super sweet. Thanks for the Ed Hardy cap too, i love the blings on it, coooolios :) And thanks for the apology present which is a new hamster in a baby pink cage and we decided to name it Cupcake! Cos she's muffin's little sister, of the same breed. Thanks a million darling! I appreciate the effort put in, no other boy can do it like you, you're really the sweetest already. Please keep it this way marcus, lets stay like this forever although forever does not take place in my world but you have to prove it to me :) I'm leaving in 4 days time and your O's are taking place this thursday. Please take care of yourself and study hard. I hope whenever you're down from all that studying and need some encouragement, you'll open your pencil case to find that note sticked there :) I hope you like the CDs with our all-time favourite songs, the heart-shaped strawberry cheesecake baked with love & the red larva lamp, I think it's super cooooool. I'll always be that light, guiding you through your darkest time. It'll put you to sleep for the next 17 days okay. I love you baby, with all my heart. Let's treasure the next 4 days together & start everything afresh okay?
I lose my way And it's not too long before you point it out I cannot cry Because I know that's weakness in your eyes I'm forced to fake A smile, a laugh everyday of my life My heart can't possibly break When it wasn't even whole to start with
Because of you I never stray too far from the sidewalk Because of you I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt Because of you I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me Because of you I am afraid
I watched you die I heard you cry every night in your sleep I was so young You should have known better than to lean on me You never thought of anyone else You just saw your pain And now I cry in the middle of the night For the same damn thing..
“Love is patient, love is kind and envies no one. Love is never boastful, nor conceited, nor rude, never selfish, not quick to take offence. There is nothing love cannot face, there is no limit to its faith, its hope, and endurance. In a world, there are three things that last forever: faith, hope, and love but the greatest of them all is love.”
1 Corinthians 13
I GIVE UP. I give up being that perfect person everyone expects me to be. I tried my best, it's not like I didn't put in effort to please the people around me. I wish I could be perfect but I was made with my own imperfections too. The pain.. it's excruciating, it's killing me mentally & emotionally. My heart's withering, I'm not meant to love someone, it's just too painful to do so. I tried to open my heart to you, start something different, something I never felt before. Maybe this is what love suppose to be, not like my other past(s), so childish and yet trying hard for a matured relationship. I really did love you, I'm still trying hard to hold on to you. But I'm falling into pieces, I can't pick myself up from where we started. You may say I have been carrying a fake smile for the past four months, but WHY, why did you promise me things that you can't keep? Are these empty promises or just plain mistakes. You told me your ex-girlfriend made empty promises and that's one of the reason why you broke up with her but you are making the same mistake too. I'm the fool alright? I admit, I do have my own weaknesses too. I can't easily let go of memories, I have a whole string of them. Especially when I asked you did you make promises to any other girls and you replied NO without giving it a careful thought?! But I have been keeping quiet, I do know more things than you think I have no clue about but like I said, I have my ways. You did promise other girls, its written on your own archives CLEARLY. It really hurts me, all I wanted was the truth, why are you running away from it? Why can't you tell me frankly how you felt, I just wanted to know. I know, maybe I am not as special as them or not good at doing all those sweet little things that most girls can do just to make their boyfriend(s) smile but I am trying, I really am. I feel crush-ed, it's terrible. You just left me in this terrible state. Joke, whats the point. Don't try to contact me or anything. I rather be alone, we both need time. That's what I thought initially but everythings' a mess right now. We shouldn't have met perhaps, I guess it was a silly mistake. You left and you expect me to clear up this mess and let go of this memories shared all by myself? How selfish can you get! I knew nobody could show me forever, NOBODY. I want to be alone now, I want to live my life just by myself with time on my side. I wanna leave everything behind and stop crying myself to sleep anymore, it's too painful. Fuck everything, really.
God, Tiffany should not have existed. It just makes others unhappy, others heartbroken and she's too useless. Why the hell am I doing on this earth? I can't make things right. No matter how hard I tried, I'm never gonna reach for that simple happiness, I'll never be that almost perfect girl everyone wants me to be. I'm just a burden in people's lives. I really want to disappear, maybe I'll just keep everything to myself, leave this place full of fucking memories, leave everything behind. I know, it's the perfect timing since I'm flying off on Friday morning. And when I'm back, I swear, I'll be fine. I'll be happy once again, I will. For now, fuck everything, fuck love. What is love, God can you give me an explanation? I really need you right now. I really want to feel your presence back again, you are the only one who will never leave me, never forsake me. You are the only Love Story I will ever cherish and believe in. No one can compare to your true love, no one. Give me a chance to make things right again to start a life with no regrets. I'm already starting to miss so many things right now, I miss muffin, I miss how she poses for pictures, how active and lively she can get, I wonder what's she's really doing now. Oh well, I miss the OLD you. I really do, can't help it, people change in a blink of an eye. You never knew what kind of person you were before, you were so cheerful, so loving, sweet, gentle and had a charisma no other boy would possess. But after today, I guess it's really true that I can't forget your past, I'm still not able to do so or maybe I just need time which you are not able to give me you even told it will hurt if we talk about your past. You mean you are still hurt? I really don't understand you. I'm not use to not being the FIRST. I'm always the FIRST in everything, I felt that my boyfriend's heart had always belonged to me cos most of them has never been in a relationship before, or even so, it was not a realistic one. I was their FIRST, but not for you. Whenever I ask you about them, you are always running away from the question, why is that so? You don't have to give me an answer, I am not fit to ask you for an explanation. Only you know the answer, only you. I'm sorry for all the bad times but I'm also thankful for all the good times too. Love, it's over-rated, it just don't make sense to me anymore. Please leave me alone, I really need time away from you, to forget you. It's hard, but at least I'll try, I'll try.
Tiffany, please pick yourself up, now is the time to cry all your worries and troubles all out for this once. Do whatever you have to do to make yourself feel better, once you're back from your vacation, your heart will have the strength to piece itself back again. You will get better, you will.
they never seem to end. Why am I burning all these CDs of all our all-time favourite songs just to keep you company while I'm away? HAHA joke, I am the joke. Trying to be a better girlfriend towards you yet it never seems to take flight at all. Six more minutes and I'm crying so badly already.
I'm finally done with my N LEVELS (!!!) Honestly, I gave it my best shot, I tried my very best to work towards my targets with my constant mugging. Just really hope to collect my results in December with no regrets and get promoted as a class (: All that stress and fending-distractions are O-V-E-R. On a happier note, Tiffany has been the happiest girl in the whole wide world and she has been loving every single thing about her life, teehee. Reasons being,
Picnic & Biking at East Coast on Lantern Festival w/ our baby Muffin,
Lunch at White Dog Cafe,
Lets keep it this way,
Random,
Last day of N Levels, went to Jean Yip for my hair-cut together with Mummy. Cut bangs & shaped my hair behind to concave but kept my length so not much difference :) After our hair-cut went for a quick shopping. Bought my red ballet Crocs, plain ear studs & two sweatshirts from Zara - baby pink & navy blue. Met Marcus and we ate our favourite chilli cheese fries at Carls Jr. Caught Mama Mia, like finally (: Love the show, totally. After the movie, we went to Giant to shop for groceries and rushed back to my place. We cooked for each other for dinner, to be more precise, it was candle-light dinner. Cooked two pieces of steak, fries, cheese saussages, chicken wings, mini-hashbrowns & pasta. It was really nice, I tell you :) Thanks baby, I love you.
Marcus stayed over my place & we played The Game of Life half-way (HAHA) We slept all the way till noon the next day and we headed to Suntec/Marina Square in the late afternoon intending to catch House Bunny but there was NO available time slots >:( Ate my favourite green tea ice-cream & walked to Esplanade to take some pictures (:
When the going gets tough, the tough gets going.
I love marcus seah kai jie, thanks for everything baby, all the times we spent together <3
Tiffany is my name and i love to create happy endings for myself, i'm only interested in romantic boys & i prefer being reserved at times and totally dislike crowds. I love my dogs (Princess, Becky & Ada). At times, i really wish for many things to co-exist & on top of that, i'm extra girlicious & of course, pink is the sex.
I'm the girl next door, I'm frank but blunt and a little crazy at times. I'm a kid at heart and admire beauty & love. 8 December's my big day and I am proud to be a Fairsian. I love Fairytales, Tinkerbell, Princess Sparkles (Pony), Boat Rides, Ferris Wheels, Romantic boys, Shopping, Partying, Dancing, Photography, Fashion, Dining, Sports, My Dogs (Princess, Becky, Ada), My hamster (Xiao Long Bao) & my baby boy, Marcus Seah<3 Wish Upon A Star
To love God with all my heart
To love my family, boyfriend & friends
5 points & below for N levels or at least get promoted
For marcus to keep his promise 10 years from now
To find a suitable church ASAP
To be somebody I wanna become and not what others want me to be
To have an enjoyable trip to America this October
Sweet Sixteen Birthday Party
Tinkerbell & Tiara Tatoo
Tounge & Lip piercing
Juicy Couture Sidekick
Apple Macbook Pro
Gucci Wallet
Pink Cybershot Camera
Hair to grow LONGER for digtal perm again
Flywheel with Marcus
Sentosa, luge with Marcus/friends
Primary 6E & Secondary 2G reunion
Live & Study in Newport, California
Get my braces off!
Get into Ballet class again or Ballroom Jazz!
To get my Happily Ever After
New Blog
Tiffany, please pick yourself up, now is the time to cry all your worries and troubles all out for this once. Do whatever you have to do to make yourself feel better, once you're back from your vacation, your heart will have the strength to piece itself back again. You will get better, you will.
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Random,
Last day of N Levels, went to Jean Yip for my hair-cut together with Mummy. Cut bangs & shaped my hair behind to concave but kept my length so not much difference :) After our hair-cut went for a quick shopping. Bought my red ballet Crocs, plain ear studs & two sweatshirts from Zara - baby pink & navy blue. Met Marcus and we ate our favourite chilli cheese fries at Carls Jr. Caught Mama Mia, like finally (: Love the show, totally. After the movie, we went to Giant to shop for groceries and rushed back to my place. We cooked for each other for dinner, to be more precise, it was candle-light dinner. Cooked two pieces of steak, fries, cheese saussages, chicken wings, mini-hashbrowns & pasta. It was really nice, I tell you :) Thanks baby, I love you.
Marcus stayed over my place & we played The Game of Life half-way (HAHA) We slept all the way till noon the next day and we headed to Suntec/Marina Square in the late afternoon intending to catch House Bunny but there was NO available time slots >:( Ate my favourite green tea ice-cream & walked to Esplanade to take some pictures (:
